I eat as if there was no tomorrow. There is a certain urgency around each meal. I have a strong drive to stretch my stomach slightly and experience the feeling of fullness and bliss. I didn’t realise that until I started my programme.
I hit the wall first day. I was having my lunch at work; eating mindfully and listening to my body signals. I had a large pot of Lentil Dahl soup and a sunflower seed roll. I was half way through my pot , when I’ve realised I’m getting full and actually I’m OK to stop eating now. But guess what?
It made me feel sad. Disappointed, almost angry.
Those unexpected feelings made me think for the rest of the day. I have finally understood. I was sad because I wanted to eat it all. Never mind my full stomach. The picture of my half eaten soup and delicious, freshly baked roll made me angry. It tasted so good, I wanted to keep going.
I felt embarrassed.
I eat fast so I can feel good faster. I rely on food to make me feel better, happier, relaxed. That day I walked away from my soup I’ve realised that this is what my slimming journey is going to be about- breaking the unhealthy relationship with the food.